Poetry Friday
I had such a great response to a previous poem submitted by Philippa from the feistybluegecko blog, that I just had to share another with you today. I feel sure that this poem will resonate with many of you who experience the insomnia related to treatment and beyond and the fears that can crowd into our minds in the wee small hours.
Nightly Mind Games
In the dead of night, I lie awake,
again I cannot sleep,
crowded by those night time thoughts,
unbidden, dark and deep
They intrude my mind, they force my fears
of the coming hours and days
it’s all unknown and new and changed
no clear future, just a haze
The nightly battle gathers strength
the dark thoughts laugh and jeer
they invade my mind, distort my dreams
and fuel my fright and fear
Slowly and eventually
the night begins to fail
the blackest black turns inky grey
and the dark thoughts start to pale
I start to drift in easier mind
as daylight melts the dark away
the black thoughts lose the upper hand
dreams and lighter thoughts start to play
In light of day I know they’re there,
these deep and tugging fears
hiding, waiting, lurking
they refuse to disappear
But I know that in the warm sunshine
they lose their hold on me
and though they’re back in dead of night
for now, my mind is free
Now this is something I can readily identify with!
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Captures those fears we all have in the early hours very well.
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Enjoyed this poem very much. You are a great writer Philippa
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love the image,
outstanding capture of the sentiments.
thanks for sharing.
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It took me many years to appreciate those sleepless hours. Now I view them as quiet times of reflection and whisper, “please change my fear to faith.” Thanks for putting this so well into your poetry.
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Nice poem that sums up something we can all relate so well to. Funny, I didn’t sleep well last night in fact. I just can’t seem to stop thinking sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night.
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Great poem !! The feelings are so real and true….brings back clear memories. It’s of great confort to know that I was not the only crazy one, as weird as that may sound !! Thank you so !!
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Thanks so much for sharing this, Marie.
I actually “wrote” this while lying night after night unable to sleep, in the days following diagnosis and surgery. It was while composing it in my mind, I also decided that I had to blog – there was so much going round and round in my mind. It has helped enormously – a bit like a download button!!
I still have these night time imaginings, probably now fuelled by Tamoxifen!
Thank you so much for your encouraging and warm comments.
Philippa (aka Feisty Blue Gecko) 🙂
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