Standing in the Gap
The only thing helping me cope right now, giving me the strength I need to keep going through all of this, is being able to turn to this blog, to write a little but most of all to read your comments. In the morning when I read them they give me comfort and strength to face the day ahead.
When I feel as if I am drowning in despair, Journeying Beyond is the life raft I reach out for. I feel compelled to keep writing here, and the only thing I want to write about is my beloved mother and this profound experience of her dying. And yet, I don’t want readers to find nothing but pain and despair when they come here, which is why I am so grateful to Lauren Rockwell, who approached me a few days ago with this suggestion:
My momma always said, never ask what you can do but think of something and do it. So I am. I wondered how you would feel about me approaching all the bloggesses to each write a guest blog for you these next few weeks, for things to fill the space for somedays you just don’t have the time or gumption to post or look for material to post.
So, while I shall continue to write occasionally, I am handing over Journeying Beyond to this amazing community of blog writers, who are going to stand in the gap for me during these next few weeks. Being slightly obsessed with words, I looked up the definition of “standing in the gap” and found this meaning – “to take the place of a fallen defender or supporter”. I am aware too that the phrase is a Biblical one which comes from Ezekiel 22:30 where the Lord was looking for someone among the Israelites to stand in the gap of the wall, but “no one could be found.” But, I found someone, several somones, who are prepared to stand in the gap for me until I can stand and fight again another day. I am truly blessed.
My condolences to you. Much light during your time away, as always
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it is why we are here Marie, for each other.
xo
lauren
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Lauren, your mom certainly raised a great girl. And you’re right, it is why we are here–for each other. One good thing to come out of all the hardships of cancer is how it binds us together. Marie, much love and kind thoughts coming your way.
xo,
Nancy
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I believe you’re working through all of your feelings through writing, which is wonderful. Don’t feel bad about that, however, taking a break from this, I hope you will continue reaching out in other ways. Don’t be alone! Many prayers for you….
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Marie:
I have yet to be where you are, but am supporting my best friend since childhood as she watches her father die slowly. It’s a horrible place to be and I wish you all the best as you walk through this fire. I know I can speak for us all when I say we support whatever you need to do and we’ll all still be here when you get back.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family,
Debbie
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You are such a lovely soul… I so enjoy reading your words and would like you to know that my heart wraps ’round you at this time.
…Ellyn
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You and your family are in my prayers. I’ve been there. It is both a horrible and beautiful time.. a time for shared moments, for the unsaid to be said, for love to surface and surround all of you.
For everything there is a season.
Love,
Jody
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Marie,
And my thoughts are with you constantly. I pop over here a couple of times a day to see how you are doing. Still sending a stream of love…..
Lauren…… What a wonderful lesson I learned today from YOUR mom. I won’t ever again ask what I can do when I see someone in need. I will just roll up my sleeves and do something. How special you are!
AnneMarie
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I feel your presence AnneMarie and it brings me comfort and strength x
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Dear Marie, I am sorry you are suffering so and you are in my prayers. I can only imagine the pain you are feeling. Please take care of yourself and know that we are all out here supporting you and sending you love and care and warmth. Take as much time as you need and know that because of your kindness and caring and willingness to ‘stand in the gap’ for so many of us, there are many out here standing in line to help you.
Love, Debbie xx
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I know my dear, and I am very, very grateful xxx
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I’m so sorry Marie. All of my thoughts and prayers are with you.
XOXO,
Katie
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Thank you Katie and for sending me the beautiful John O’D poem x
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I think as Jody says it’s both a horrible and beautiful time. I experienced that when my father died. I’m sorry it’s causing you so much hurt Marie. You have wonderful cyber friends around you here who will cushion the hurt.
Love, Sarah
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Thank you Sarah x
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Marie, I send my love and deepest condolences to you and certainly understand your need for quiet solace and healing. This is a time beyond words, no matter how eloquent we may have been in other circumstances. Our hearts embrace you and I applaud your courage. Even in your sorrow, you bring us wisdom and comfort. Thank you for sharing the words I was never able to find when I lost my Mom this summer. Love, Laurie
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Laurie, I am so sorry for your own loss and I thank you for reaching out to me with such eloquence and compassion x
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Marie,
Like you, I took solace from those who left comments on my blog. Grief is a deep well and for a time, no amount of prayers and good wishes can fill it up. We just have to walk through it, crying, remembering, loving and exploring all of the “might have beens” until we reach a day when we’re a bit stronger and able to move forward. Forward may be baby steps, forward may even be in reverse, but know that is all a part of the grieving process.
We are all here for you, ready and able to help in whatever ways we can.
Love and prayers,
Brenda
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And Brenda, I think of you often and I know that your words come from a place of hard earned wisdom. Thank you for sharing your compassion and wisdom x
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I’m glad writing is your life raft. I find that to be true as well. Even so, sometimes a person must step back and let others “stand in the gap.” Keep writing and share that writing here again when you are ready. We’ll be right here waiting.
Love, Nancy
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I know this to be true and I take great comfort from this Nancy x
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Oh our special Marie,
As I read your words–I pray for comfort for you!
As I read the comments–I praise God for you and the community of friends you helped create through your blog. Through tragedy and life hurts, through celebration and joy, the friendship that has grown is so beautiful! The only challenge for us cyberfriends, it is hard to catch the hug we send…but please know you are in our thoughts and prayers.
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I felt that .. I truly did xxx
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Marie, we care so deeply about you. You can count on your friends to be here in good times and in not-so-good times.
One day at a time….
xoxo
Beth
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Thank you so much Beth – I am very grateful indeed xxx
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Everyone above has written so beautifully, all I can add is that I am thinking of you and sending light your way.
-Renn
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I appreciate this so much Renn x
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It is so true that we find out who are real friends are in times of need. The fact that our true friends are among those we have met online and through our blogs is beautiful and humbling. Lauren, your generosity of spirit and thoughtfulness stand out, you are a special friend indeed. Marie, I am also “checking in” to see how you are doing and to add in my love and prayers, even in the times I don’t actually write anything.
Love and prayers
P
xxxxxx
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Thank you dear Philippa x
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Marie, By stepping back for a while you have actually strengthened the site. Firstly, you’ve lived the message of showing care for yourself. Secondly, your generosity in allowing others to continue with the site, rather than pausing your great work, has generated a new spirit in this true community of friends.
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Deirdre, a comment from you is always a special thing – thank you!
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Marie – I’m so sorry for you and your family, but I hope that this time spent with your Mum brings you some peace and comfort. Don’t worry about the blog. Step in and out as you need, and all your blogging friends will still be here when you feel you want to return. Sending you much love. Rachel xxxxx
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Big love and lightness to you during this very dark period. I will keep you in and your Mom in my thoughts and prayers. I am honoured to be part of a community that can stand in the gap for you. xoxo
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Thank you my dear friend x
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Prayers, healing, rest, respite. May you rest in the love of those who care for you. That Ezekiel passage can truly be modified in your case, with your abundance of loving friends.
XOXO,
Jan
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I am so happy you are blessed with so many kind friends. Know that I’m here to help you fill in the gap and pray for you and your mother.
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Dear Marie,
I have been mostly offline for some weeks now. And, as a result, am only now catching up with your blog and learning of your Mom’s condition. I am so very sorry for your suffering and for her suffering. Your posts are so moving and I am very touched by what you write, it is heartbreaking. Please know you, your Mum, and your family are in my thoughts and prayers and will continue to be.
I am thinking of you and sending love your way.
xoxoxo
Lisa
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